I feel like my anxiety is killing me slowly, I’m getting less good days and I’m starting to feel like I’m not really here

It’s horrible that I can’t even make a call to order take out, or that I would rather not buy anything somewhere if that means I would have to ask someone for help or ever order food.

I’m talking less to my friends because I feel like I’m nothing, unimportant and not enough for their time

I feel like I don’t belong anywhere because I see people enjoying life and idk talking to each other and singing out loud and going places, it took me a whole month to adapt in my new work place but I see the new guys adapting in a day or two and I feel like a freak!

And I wonder how would it be like to live without anxiety? I bet it’s awesome to not have anxiety attacks daily over such stupid things like “I didn’t say good bye to my boss! Oh no she must think I’m rude and she will think less of me and she is gonna fire me!”

And damn, even if i am aware that this horrible anxiety I get is unfounded and that everything will be alright, i still can’t help but panic and I feel like I’m suffocating and I hate it.